Sleepless in Sembawang

I couldn't sleep last night. I was physically exhausted but I just couldn't shut my eyes. Even when I closed my eyelids, the silence and darkness of the night engulfs me and as much as I try to shake off the silence and darkness, I just can't do it. I can't rest my mind. Something is bothering me but I do not know what. It is located in the depths of my mind and I tried desperately to uncover the hidden meaning of my insomnia but to no avail.

I got up and played dota. I watched the O.C. I went into my sister's room and bombarded her with nonsense. I know I am tired but I cannot rest still. It worries me because my exams are drawing near and I need every bit of rest I can gather but somehow, I just cannot lie down.

Slowly, I feel my legs disappearing. The numbness starts from the toes and moves swiftly up to my belly, incapacitating my lower body. The sudden numbness scared the shit out of me as I struggled to feel my legs. The sudden thought of losing a vital organ of my body struck like a lightning from the clear blue sky and it terrified me.
I grasped for breath as my heart pounded faster and faster like a hyper-charged bomb set off to explode with a thunderous bang. I tried to cry out to God, whoever he may be, but no answer as I continued my struggle to breath. My chest yearns for release, a release or scream of desperation but it fails to materialise. I clenched my fist in agony as the blood rush seized my entire being.

Then suddenly, calm and peace. I sat up slowly and felt the numbness in my legs slowly receding. I wiped the cold sweat from my head and stared into the blankness of the night, trying to figure out what just took place. I moved my tired and battered body off the bed and checked out the clock. 5 am.

I got dressed and walked to McDonalds for a breakfast. As I passed the convenience store, I checked out the bottles of wines on display. I hesitated and then decided to give them a skip. I strolled briskly on to get my breakfast and finally headed home to prepare for school.

I still don't know what hit me.