Fate
Sometimes, I do not know if there is really this strange thing called fate. Sometimes I believe in it and sometimes I don't.
I always wanted to do History in NUS and NIE but by some luck or should I say Fate, I was forced to do Literature by MOE which left a bittertaste in my mouth. Not to say that I do not like Literature. I love it but I just love History better. However, seeing how my fellow coursemates are now being tortured by their BDSM sadistic lecturer, I sometimes wonder if God or fate or whoever it is had decided long ago that I was to escape this and take the easy route out in NIE.
It was also in Australia that I really changed the way I look at things and live my life. I was so close to not going to Australia. I just hopped on the plane on impulse and God knows why I decided to go there but I somehow did and it really altered my life so dramatically in all ways one can imagine. I believe I lost my innocence somewhere in Melbourne near Swanston street where I first met Noby. Noby became my best friend and my worst friend in the way he helped me to change my worldview.
I sometimes wonder what would have happened if my ex-girlfriend and me were still together. Probably I would have been struggling to feed her appetite for good food and I would never have made it to Australia if I was still with her.
I can't help but feel that all these things are so fated that it is so scary. I sometimes lie in bed at night in the dark and wonder if my life is like a book and the story has already been written. If this really is the case,please GOD, do not make me live my life in vain. I have lived 26 years of my life drifting about and I just don't where to go.
I once met a man who know how to read the lines on one's face and he told me I am going to grow up to be someone great one day. Those words have remained etched in my memory ever since that day and as I grow older, I begin to ponder over the validity of what he has said becos i just seem to be going the other way in life, on the fasttrack to annilation and doing everything opposite to what he has said. Fate? Somebody tell me.....
2 Comments:
We are not that old, my friend....
Hmm.... fate? There are times in my life that make me realize that certain things are just meant to be and other things are just NOT meant to be. But that shouldn't stop me from sticking to my principles giving my absolute best every single day knowing that it could well be my last. As long as ther e is life, there is the chance that things will become better. At least, that's the philosophy I have. :)
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