Bored to death

I have nothing to do at home and its getting to me where I wake up everyday doing the same old meaningless things like playing game etc.

How I wish I can just somehow start work so I can start earning money. I realised that something has changed inside me. I used to yearn for a life of idleness but now I feel that idleness is extremely detrimental to personal development and idleness for long periods of time diminishes a man's drive.

I want to achieve financial freedom soon so that I can finally embark on a new phase of my life. One the one hand, I am excited. On the other hand, I am nervous as to what the world out there holds for me. I have lived 26 years in this world and the thought of spending around 40 years in the job market, slaving it out for someone that is not related to me at all and whom I do not have a feeling towards just makes me cringe. Yet, this is something I think all humans have to go through. Even millionaires have to go through this stage I guess. I seriously hope I can emulate those millionaires and have a decent report card to show in my life. I have had enough of idleness and nows the time to embark on my new goal in life: Financial Freedom.

I feel lonely at times but I guess thats the way life works. Simply I haven't met the one or simply maybe because I really am too complicated and not made for human relationships. As each day goes by, the more I keep thinking that I have managed to control this loneliness. It used to be unbearable and drove me nuts but now I think I have somehow managed to overcome this state and be more pleased with life as a single.

Life is good at the moment and I can't wait for make it better when I start work!