Inability to grow anymore

I tried and tried to put on weight but somehow I just cannot put on anymore weight. Its amazing how so many self-professed "fat" people are trying to slim down but I, on the contrary, is trying to put on weight.

People always think how hard it is for one to go and lose weight but let me tell you something. Trying to put on weight is a tough job for me. I have to eat lots of protein and suffer from constant bouts of protein overdose and yet no matter how much protein i eat, the growth is minimal. Not only that, you'll be amazed that I spent most of the time trying to churn those "growth" into muscles and not fats which means I have to exercise twice as hard as before for the "minimal gains". And not to mention that constant eating of nutritious food puts more pressure on your organs like kidneys and liver to process the food. And sometimes, I feel that I have eaten to the limit that I just don't wish to eat anymore cause my jaw is simply too tired and drained from all that chewing.

Instead of feeling more strength by being more big sized, I actually feel more lethargic and tired putting on more weight. The increased size puts more pressure on one's body and the increase amount of fats decreases vitality and stamina, which makes all the size gains useless. Its just one bug lump of fat or mass that is huge but have no real substance.

Besides, my friend from NUS actually told me that size is determined by genetics. Which means at 8 if u are thin, u are destined to be thin and vice versa. Gosh. To think I spent one whole year trying to put on weight and now 1 year later, here I am, back to square one.