WTH

Yes. WTH.

Just when I thought that thats the end for me, I got a call.

A call from the devil?

One more shot?

Fame?

Glory?

Big money??


Argh... I am confused!

Goddamn it!

The game.

The game is too tiring and it is distracting me from my life goals.

I have decided to end it once and for all.

No more games. No more fooling around. No more nonsense.

The real battle has started.

Therefore, I have decided to pull out of the game.

Its time to roll my sleeves and be serious.

California Fitness Mania

Thats it. I am a member of California Fitness. I just signed up. Its a superb place to work out, replete with modern gym facilities and wonderful trainers. The whole environment is just perfect for a workout. Not to mention the contacts I am going to get!!

Looks like a great deal to me!!!!

I must....

I must make it big in life.
I must make it big in life.
I must make it big in life.
I must make it big in life.

I must succeed.
I must succeed.
I must succeed.
I must succeed.
I must succeed.

I must live the life I want to live.
I must live the life I want to live.
I must live the life I want to live.
I must live the life I want to live.
I must live the life I want to live.

Say No to Slavery

I refuse to be a slave to multinational corporations.
I refuse to sell my freedom.
I refuse to sell my time to useless companies.
I refuse to sell my soul.
I refuse to become a slave to work.
I refuse to do something I do not like.

Jasmin is eliminated!

I feel sad for Jasmin Tye. She is out of Singapore Idol.

I must admit that I started out rooting for her exit because I just do not find her appealing and I always thought that she cannot sing as well as the other contestants.
Simply put, I just feel that she does not have the qualities that an idol should have.

However, as the competition progresses, I must admit this girl won my heart over. Not only did she display her humble character, she has become more feminine and more importantly, I was very impressed by the progress she has made in her vocal deliveries. It was then I started thinking that this girl might be special after all.

I guess it took me some time to get used to Jasmin's way of conducting herself but well, I guess in the end, all it matters is that she has won a fan in me, and to do so by turning me from wanting her out of the competition, to feeling sad to see her leave at this stage, she deserves an applause.

Jasmin Tye, you may be out but you are the Singapore Idol in my heart!

Fulltime gym, parttime NIE

I have become a gym maniac. I never thought that I would one day hit the gym 5 days a week but well, I guess, the influence of fitness maniac friends in NIE is just too strong to be ignored. Can you imagine that 3/4 of the guys in NIE are so free that they can afford to hit the gym everyday and most of them posess bodybuilding style pectorals and abs ( I kid you not!)

Been pumping hard these few days. 2 hours per day inside the gym and its intensive stuff, hardcore WWE style shaping and weight lifting. The hard part is not the pumping itself but the kind of food you have to feed your body. My friend and I hit the Seoul Garden buffet after training and we literally finished most of the meat on display and we can still feel not full.

A lot of people think that running burns a lot of calories. It does but running and other forms of cardio only burns calories while u are at it. But if u develop muscles, the muscles will burn calories 24 hours as long as its there which means ur metabolism and appetite can just skyrocket. You can eat loads of food and still get hungry in 2 hours. Amazing thing is that you keep eating but you do not gain that much fat and weight because the muscle is still eating away the calories. So u just keep gaining more muscle mass instead. I think I have found the right formulae to keep fit!

The training styles taught by my hardcore gymsters at NIE also meant that I can achieve more muscle gains. I never knew that correct technique was so essential but after going through two weeks of gyming with them, I realised that correct technique is A MUST. You build muscles double quick time and once the protein supplement goes into your body, you can just feel your whole body expanding.

Give myself 3 more months and I hope to achieve the abs of Brad Pitt in Troy.

Reflections

I used to think that I am one of the best in everything I do but I guess the biggest lesson I got from Project Superstar elimination was that I am not even near good. It was a truely humbling experience and as much as I queued 2 days for it, I am glad I went ahead because it showed me that theres always someone better than you, no matter how good you are.

I am not disheartened though. Its easy to say things but I felt the truth of this old adage from joining this competition: Nothing in life comes easy. Its true. Every single step you see the stars take is a result of hard work, toil and sweat. Nothing in life comes easy. It is a wake up call for me to work twice as hard. I may not have that much talent as others but I sure ain't gonna give up. I may not have as much talent as others but you can be sure I will always give them a run for their money but working harder than them.

That being said, I wish all those who take part the best of luck, especially those who got through first round! Gambatte! For those who did not make it, do not despair. Jiayou!!!

More determined than ever!

Getting eliminated from the 1st round did not damper my spirits. It was quite an experience.

However, being eliminated, I have decided not to join any singing or superstar competition in future. Now, I am even more determined to do well in other avenues so that I can earn enough money to live the kind of life I want. It just fires me up and makes me more determined than ever to make my AUSTRALIA dream come true!!!

U aint see the last of me yet! Get ready for more. Its just the beginning....

The squeeze.

I am feeling the squeeze.

As I laid there doing my boring assignment for NIE, I thought about Australia again and realised the mammoth task I have at hand. And I realise that I am lacking an essential ingredient in Vitamin M ($).

It dawned upon me how my life would have been much easier if I had more money. I am certainly not driven by lust for material wealth but I sometimes wondered if life would have been a little easier for me if I had spare cash in my pocket where my interests and hobbies are not curtailed by my bank account. If only I had like 1 million in my bank, I can just jet off to an exotic island for vacation once in a while, away from the concrete madness of urban and sterile Singapore. If only I had money, I would just jet off to study in Australia and amass enough points for immigration.

As much as I hate to link everything to money, sad to say, it is essential in modern day capitalist society. I am pretty certain that having more money will reduce the squeeze on me.